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well well well who knows. [01 Oct 2007|06:14pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | feist ] im so weird. and last night made me realize that. just weird in the sense that i didnt know what was going on and my thoughts were just all over the place. i didnt know what to say to anyone but i had so much to say. i dont know how to feel about anything. & every conversation went no where to me, it was just a bunch of words and sentences. even though i was "impaired" at the time, its kind of how i always am, confused and not knowing what is going on with me. but, uh, good trip. ahhh, i cant even say what i feel anymore, i dont...TO ANYONE. which is a completely different me. I may or may not go crazy if im not already? i guess i just dont trust anyone anymore, well i know i don't. oh well, these changes could be for the better. i just need to get the fuck out moreeee, stop thinking so much and liiiiiive so who is with me!!! ITS FUCKING OCTOBER, best month. hayride...immediately. 1 *$^%!@#!

[13 Sep 2007|05:07pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | sarinas voice ] dont call it a comebackkkk. i think ill start writing in this more even though you dont wanna read it! alls i gotsta say now is that life is weirdddddd. CYA. 1 *$^%!@#!

orange spider orange leaf. [27 Sep 2006|11:55am] [ music | brandnew ] i hate who i used to be this time last year, i regret it all and would take it back in a heartbeat. i love who i am now. i know how i am & you can all have your opinions of who you think i am today but i really dont even give a fuck. true friends know and if you think you do, just keep your mouth shut cause your dead wrong. i can honestly say & believe that i am a genuinely good person now. schools pretty corny. im failing math, ive never been good at it but i refuse to fail this course. i cant wait to transfer or do something next year. i do love waking up and driving to school each day just listening to music by myself. i really feel good about not being a total sloth and seeing the day before 1 oclock each day and i really get to see how beautiful it is. ive been enjoying and appreciating things a lot more lately. i still dont really know my priorities but i know i want to go and live at a school next year. im scarred but i need to do it for myself. i think it will be good. work is work. im making money so that im happy about. i still feel broke though? ehhh. only one thing that really gets to me. its ridiculous & that might be the only thing in my life right now that really, really bothers me. its like periods of good than a few days of bad. repeat. idkkkk, confusing as hell. but its my favorite when its gooddddddd. my highs and lows are retarded. well that bothers me & stupid fake idiots. im missing college friends & loving that im hanging with new friends too. also loving that i dont have to see some people a lot anymore. ive learned to steer clear of people that get on my fucking nerves lately. im not taking shit from you or anyone so leave it alone. mewithoutyou last night was sosososo gooood<3 yellow spider, yellow leafff! me and rachel were in heaven. anna casey and matttt beat me up in the mall, face against the glass. me, anna, and matt found matts twin and a lot of other cool scene turkeys through the glass at fye. LOL. fake teef and spit all over my arm. ew matt. i eat taco bell way too much & im not eating out for awhile. i did want to go on a picnic today but matt is probably sleeeeping cause hes a loser. i want to go downtown shopping soooon! jackass 2 was the funniest movie ive seen in 80 years. i couldnt stop laughing. jacks mannequin thursday! im sooo excited. when me cheri moffo and jay went to baltimore last time it was such a good time. i wanna see paul in balti!<3 moffo tells me he got me a deathcab ticket too at madison square garden. LOVE! also excited for the october 13th show at the jutebox, the friendship lounge, ctc, tia comes back from tour. should be a good time. so many good times happening lately. i love the people in my life right now. im not really missing anyone cause ive got everyone i neeed. me and kevin aka mr. randy quaid were high little babes last night. i smoked the bowl backwards & we were cute retarrrrrrrrds. that reminds me how i fuck shit up in clue. sometimes i feel bad and let other people win. im the shaaaait. hayrides are a must soon. matts never been on one. weirdoooo. if you are trying to go im definately planning this. HALLOWEEN and IM SO EXCITED. i took off from work already. haha. favvvvvvvvvv holiday. im thinking of chopping my hair short or putting extensions back in. im sick of this hair. suggestions? dont say shave your head, its not original. 4 *$^%!@#!

[05 May 2006|11:44am] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | brand new demo ] okay so tonight's prom. pretty excited. than mountains. wasted. loveit. i'm taking loads of pictures. everyone is going to look so pretty! hurt my knee at softball last night sliding into third (had to get up and got two bases and scored cause im fucking sweet, haha) so me & kevin will be knee cripz. awwww. i put my extensions in last night. i wish i had long hair, i love it, i miss it. they are sooo long. i'm getting it done at 2:30. than sitting around til 6ish. kevys coming over than going to staceys. i'm going to go get ready now. thank you to becky& katherine for being my prom shopper, i love you bitchs<3 okay, be safe this weekend. have fun. i have games this week. yous should come. & also 18th birthday thursday. HOLLA. LONGNESS don't read if you don't care. haha... [i get in these moods sometimes. annoyed turns into sad than i come down on myself so hard for every little thing than i'm mean to other people. i may be bi-polar? my dad says i scare him because i get so angry sometimes. HAHA. love it. me& stacey were talking and i was like "so& so doesnt seem like they like me" & she said that i come off like I hate people sometimes to everyone and she thinks that i hate her sometimes, which usually isn't the case ever. i dont know whats wrong with me but it needs to go away. i don't want to be like that. i'm still trying the be cool with everyone thing. i guess it happened the other way around for me & one person though? random but i'm glad it happened. it was almost a year without someone that used to be my good friend & i'm just glad we talk again. if you don't like it, keep it to yourself, its fucking annoying.] 8 *$^%!@#!

ZZZZZZZ [06 Oct 2005|08:05pm] [ mood | lazy ] [ music | Get-Up Kids- Close to me ] I havent written in this thing in years. Im high. I love music. Im not wearing underwear. Im scum. I love alochol. I love my friends. Im very lazy. School is getting alittle better. Tests, projects, failing grades and senior math can all suck my d. Me& Stacey go random places everyday. Me Ashley and Stacey went on a nature walk today. It was cute. I got retarded at Kramers last weekend. SATS saturday morning but breakfast with Dillow and Stacey. Tomorrow is friday. Monday is MCS/FOB show. I love it. <3 HAYRIDE THIS WEEKEND? ..You will want to sit next to me, believe it. 15 *$^%!@#!

[01 May 2005|03:05pm] [ mood | happenedbefore ] that mistake was gold & i know that without you is something that i could never ever ever ever.... *$^%!@#!

the time has come [28 Oct 2004|10:42pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | what do you think i am listening to. der ] so i waited until the whole "post a comment, ill tell you what i think..." thing died down a bit. so now its time.....   Post a comment and I will tell you what i truly think of you....   kristen [p to the s: pictures and post are on the way, tomorrow perhaps?] 28 *$^%!@#!

[17 Jun 2004|10:30pm] FRIENDS ONLY THANKS     were good friends. yeah real good friends, i bet i bet     comment to be added all you trick ass hoes<35094973623324       21 *$^%!@#!

im star crosses and stark im waiting for you to talk [07 Jun 2004|09:07am] [ mood | weird ] sucks how i have nothing to write. sucks my life is a boring mess. i have a feeling this week will be the longest yet, meaning the last week of actual school. chris is always sleeping these days. night shift makes him screwed up. i want to punch him but i know its not his fault.<3 friday i did hang out with matt dowd. good convos going on there and i gave him a kickass bracelet, you know. i walked in the rain and sat in dans cars listening to jerky boys tapes. i went to several graduation parties and probably gained a billion pounds from the food. not to mention a spanish party last period with chips and salsa at 8oclock in the morning. this period is going sooo slow. this weekend i want to see the stepford wives. oh oh oh and yesterday i got a bathing suit. it will look lovely in the drawer with the other one. i have a math test next period. im happy she gives me points out of pity from my stupidity. ms zima's my lovah. i read over this 50 times and it still makes no sense.<3905734975 7 *$^%!@#!

bull fucking smash [02 Jun 2004|03:27pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | brand new- play crack the sky ] steph's graduation party was saturday at the glen foerd mansion. it was a good time. i left chris for a second and came back to find him talking to my grandmother and having a cigarette with her. shes not allowed to be smoking but oh i caught her alright. my grandmom had two or three drinks and was on her way. yes lots of drunk, jovial, embarrassing and lovely people. oh how i love family parties. sunday was chris' party. this five day weekend was a good taste of summer. [ps. i wish chris was in more of these pictures and less of me but he takeded my camera] WE CAME   HE CONQUERED we walked planks walked through a rose garden and saw a deer smoking a cigarette. yeah...thats all kristen<3 9 *$^%!@#!

nothing to write [27 May 2004|09:14am] five day weekend, i can taste summer now. anyways softball tonight stephs party on saturday going away sunday tuesday steph graduates yesterday at lunch mike kept biting me and trish trashed my sister. quite possibly the funniest thing. hahaha yeah it doesnt bother me? 11 *$^%!@#!

winding down. [26 May 2004|09:15am] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | grow up ] well only a few more days of being commented too, ignored, talked about, kicked, drama, bitches, cliques, only a few more days of ryan. haha fuck you school! hey! kill yourself this summer. 17 *$^%!@#!

babies having babies [25 May 2004|09:04am] i sort of want to write lots of profanties and complaints in this entry but im going to save MYSELF the aggravation. trying to be the bigger person but sometimes it doesnt work for me. i wish i could just go around school everyday and not talk to anybody and just get through it. i think i have a rage problem though. theres only so much i can take from people while holding my tounge. hence the reason i cursed 'him' off and he when he came to my work. he needs to get over himself and realize that car accident was his fault and stop telling people it wasnt. what are you going to do next blame it on me to save your ass? you must be dumb if you look at the street in which the accident occured and think it was the other persons fault. and then for him to call me and bitch at me for leaving is above all the worst thing possible. he saw me leave and if i needed to stay there so much ( which i didnt because it didnt make a fucking bit of difference) he would have told me to do so. so on that note fuck you your dumb. anyone else besides greg that ive done anything to in this past year, im sorry and you can take it or leave it. im trying, i really am. really hate having enemies sunday i worked all day, my last day of work, so no more free money. yesterday we had a game, we lost. saturdays stephs graduation. christopher got his GED. congradualtions sweetie<3 kristin i love you call me! 4 *$^%!@#!

your not sneaky so fuck you [20 May 2004|09:22pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | bright eyes+sunrise, sunset ] my boyfriend is the best. he bought me a diamond necklace plus more for my birthday. than i cut his hair off. he looks hawt. lyke omgawd, my boyfriend loves me and he doesnt even use me for sex, like how awesome is that!? i miss him when he works night shift though. wahh i had a softball game tonight. this girl in my history class was the pitcher. we beat them and i hit a homerun off of her. shes mean anyways. my computer teacher blocked the internet from me so everytime i click on it the words "FREE PORN" come up and it says "contact your adminstrator" hahaha try and act like im looking at porn. phsttt. i beat the system. 10 *$^%!@#!

GET GET GET GET GET OVER IT [14 May 2004|09:06am] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | sunrise sunset ] God and baby jesus its friday! three day weekend. it better be kickass, im sick of wasting my days doing nothing. im rather be doing anything. hooray for trying new things. 7 *$^%!@#!

3112543618004224 [12 May 2004|09:49am] [ mood | hot ] 2nd period blows. no one even listens to her so ill write here. today is quite possibly the hottest day. me stacey and dave were standing in the may procession wishing matt dowd would streak across the feild or a riot would break out. anyways, my birthday was alright. i didnt do much but my mami is having a bbq and cake for me tonight with everyone which is cute. school kind of sucked. i got out and my aunt took me to lunch, my sister forgot to bring me shoes so i wore my school ones and looked like a hick. i felt sick when i got home, real bad headache. than off to the most embarrassing thing in my life. we ended our undefeated winning streak than. A division champs kicked our ass SO bad. i was actually embarrassed, i think my whole team was and the girls were pissing me off so bad. laughing at us and i yelled at the catcher, i knew her. this one girl hit a ball right back at my sisters face and i almost killed her i memorized her number. if that would have hit my sister i would have hit her in the face with a bat. i get so crazy when it comes to my sister. me and kristen hoffman just sulked about our horrifying loss but its all good cause i have a game thursday which we will win. the team sang happy birthday to me too haha. i got home and went to mats. meg and cheri gave me presents than me and josh went to chris' and he gave me a pickle and my present. josh said he and ali are having a hair growing contest. i have to do my math homework but ill just tell you what i got later when i get everything. megs baking a cake for me and stuff. ah i love my friends very much so. im such a little girl but im excited haha. <3 6 *$^%!@#!

[11 May 2004|08:36am] [ mood | happy ] yes its my birthday, im 16 but i feel like a little kid compared to everyone else. todays a weird schedule which adds three extra minutes on to the end of the day but the classes are only 30 minutes and everyone bitches. wah shut up. oh man am i excited i get to go to the drug thing next. yes. anyways this weeks pretty much planned out for me. today my aunts taking me out for lunch, than softball game in the hood against all the ghetto-fabs mamis. than hanging out with everyone. erin said shes making me cupcakes for softball. mhmm thats right. this weekend was good. i spent it with my mom and we shopped. i got an outfit for my sister graduation. her party is going to be massive at glen foerd. greg supposedly had a keg for me maybe at eden hall or his house? saturday and KNEW i wasnt going to be home. phsttt. me stacey joe and matt are going to hang out friday like all times. matt makes me laugh lots. thanks for a good birthday <3 7 *$^%!@#!

ughguhgufhgf [07 May 2004|09:07am] im so so happy its friday. im not going to the spring fling. i think i might do something fun on a count of it being my birthday weekend. yesterday we won our game. i hit a double and walked and scored. erin etzl had a real good catch. i kind of flipped out at her but i was so mad that mr. murph yelled at me for a ball i couldnt catch. i love her sorry. anyways its off to 3rd period. 12 *$^%!@#!

lyke uhm totally luv yew [05 May 2004|09:37am] so yesterday i had softball. the field was still alittle wet and muddy because of the rain. so after i get done running he sends me out to center feild and he hit one to me. he says im the fastest on the team so he usually makes me run across the feild to get the ball in the air. so as im running i fall into this big puddle of water, mud, grass and who knows what. i had mud in my pants, in my shoe,in my glove, on my arms,on my legs. everyone pointed and laughed at me. it was quite possibly the funniest thing ever. picture it, oh boy. this journals a mess i need to re-done it sometime 3 *$^%!@#!

before i drive with a drunk drive ill drive myself [03 May 2004|08:52am] [ mood | dirty ] [ music | suckahfish ] dun dun dun monday morning and my hair is way greasy. theres this lady in my computer book with a long and teased mullet. wow i laughed. i hate school so very much but so does everyone else so ill shut up. this weekend kind of sucked. i went out to eat with mah momma on friday. it was cute. we went to fridays where stephi was working. than hung out with stace face and k at pennypack.one kid wanted me to do a keg stand but DID NOT DRINK. fucking go me. greg yelled at me. saturday was softball practice than work called and said i had to work late. so i just told him im leaving at 10:30 and that i did. matt fucking dowd visited me along with stacey and the slowest joe youll ever know. i gave matt a free pizza cause there was left over and he just left me. phssttt. than went to dannys. they were drunk AGAIN. i sat in dannys camaro pretty much sleeping while they picked me up and called me fat. it smelled of jack in there though. sunday hung out with chris for the first time in foreverness and than i went to work. my chasity bracelet held up mighty well that day so ha. greg came and apologized to me which is a first. last night was so pretty, the wind and rain was hitting my window which kept me awake which lead me to think. i hate thinking when theres nothing to think about. that leads me to think of depressing things, i think. iiim annn idiot <3<3<3<3<3<3 6 *$^%!@#!

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